Humbled Momma

Some days it just takes some crying and tears to clear that plank out of your eye. Even if it means praying on the toilet in front of your daughter (because she barged in on your "quiet time"). Yep, that was me today. I was tired of feeling tired, tired of hearing my babies cry, and tired of not being motivated to have fun. Granted its hard to do when half your day is spent feeding a baby and the rest comforting a sick toddler. However, I miss hearing laughter in our house and I miss being spunky. So, my daughter heard my prayer. It went something like this "Dear Jesus, please forgive me for raising my voice. Please Lord, help me to be a better mommy, to be patient, I thank you for these blessings, Ailish and Ian, please help me to be more creative, and to better understand their needs. If I am being lazy, help me to have the energy. If I am being selfish, help me to be selfless. Please help me to better organize our days. In the name of Jesus. Amen." And my sweet little Ailish stood next to me head bowed and hands together.

After dinner I told Will my thoughts and he shared a message he heard on the radio. It was about a mom whose house was a wreck because of her child. The child comes running to their mother to show her the drawing they drew. This here is the kicker- the mom doesn't admonish her child for the mess, but praises her child by saying what a great artist they are and admires their drawing. Today the child is an artist because they remembered their mom telling them what a great artist they were. I want to be a mom like that! So, now my new prayer is that I can distinguish what is just being a child and what is my pet peeves.

On a lighter note, I decided to introduce Ailish to Hide-N-Seek. I explained it to her, she closed her eyes while I counted and head and told her to find me. I should have found a comfier spot and brought a book with me. She began to play in our room, check on Ian, brought the Ergo carrier out of the room, and then she goes, "Momma?" "Come find me." After repeating a few times she found me and smiled and wanted to get into the Ergo carrier. At least I might have gain some muscle while putting away laundry ;)

Ian found his way out of the bouncer and was found on the floor during Ailish's tuck in time. Note to self: next time leave wiggling baby strapped in swing.